Day 0 – Don’t look back
So it’s New Year’s Eve and I bet I can guess what most people are doing today. They are reflecting on how they spent the past 365 days of their life and planning on how to make the next 366 days better (yes, 2016 is a leap year). That means they are uploading 15 second photo montages to Instagram, looking through their Timehop app, and although I’m not an active user on Facebook I’m sure there’s something on there too that let’s people look back on the year they’ve had.
Well I can say with absolute certainty that I do not need to reflect on 2015. I know what happened. I know exactly what kind of year I had and let me just say that it was kind of a rough one. I’ve had worse years for sure – I was in and out of the hospital for nearly half of 2012. But that was almost 4 years ago and I’m not about to reflect on that year either.
To put it briefly, 2015 started out with a fight and ended in heartache. And in between all that I had surgery number four, my GPA dropped from a 3.5 to a 3.49 (one freaking letter grade away from making the honor roll), and I got a new tattoo. But if I’ve learned anything in the past 4 years it’s that change is a good thing. The only way it’s bad is when you fight it; but fighting something that’s inevitable is tiring and useless. So with that newfound appreciation for how life works, I’m choosing to embrace all these new changes as well as implementing some of my own.
I am a firm believer in the idea of “If you don’t like something, change it.” I mean, what good is it to sit on the couch feeling sorry for yourself about x, y, and z. Instead of complaining about how you don’t exercise as much as you’d like to, go outside and run or bike or whatever your heart desires! Instead of sitting on the couch crying about how that one person you thought you were going to spend the rest of your life with doesn’t love you anymore – dry your tears, put some lipstick on, and go find someone who WILL love you. Even if the only person you find is yourself (and maybe your mom)… well that’s 2 people more than you thought would ever love you again (thanks mom!).
By the graces of Julius Caesar, we all get an extra day this coming year to make all of our wishes, dreams, goals, etc. come true and if all goes as planned I will be spending my extra day running.
Thus we come to what this blog is all about. Make no mistake; this blog is not a how-to blog or an advice blog or even a “I found this new recipe and it was delicious” blog. No, this is none of those things. This website you’ve stumbled across, either on purpose or on accident, is simply a documentation of how I live the next 366 days of my life. I’m not making resolutions, I’m making changes.
I don’t promise that you’ll be inspired by my journey. I don’t promise that you’ll want to keep reading about my life in 2016 after finishing this post. But I do promise that I will keep writing, posting, and documenting all of my accomplishments just in case you’re ever wondering what in the world Libby is up to these days.
Spoiler: I’m probably running.
So what are these soon-to-be accomplishments/changes of 2016? Well here they all are in no particular order:
– To have more good days than bad
– To run a half marathon (13.1 miles)
– Put myself first
– Stick to my training plan
– Drink 2000mL of water daily
– No more alcohol (well maybe a celebratory beer after graduation)
– Graduate (May 6th!)
– Pass my board exam
– Get a job as a CVT
– Run 1,000 miles total
– Read 100 books
– Move out
– And the oh so classic: Be happ(ier)
To summarize, I just want to approach 2016 with a Ferris Bueller sate of mind. As in, “if you don’t stop to look around once in awhile, you might miss something.” I want to take more risks. I want to say “yes” more than “no”. I want to try new things. I want to ask forgiveness rather than permission. I know I have a good heart with good intentions and I was raised to always do the right thing.
When I was in elementary school all my teachers wrote the same thing on all my report cards: “Doesn’t reach her potential”. Well I know what my potential is, and recently I have not been reaching it. I know what I’m capable of, I know what I want in life, and I know that there’s not much I’ll let stand in my way to get it. I’ve never truly failed at anything and I don’t plan on starting now.
So here’s to the end of 2015, and not looking back.
Here’s to you and here’s to me.